See that's how I feel. I know that I won't make it right now. I just don't have that mental drive. I have every INCH of drive to be a para I can FEEL it, but I know I'll just end up outting myself from selection and I don't know feel confident in Ranger School. I'd much rather just earn my way up so if I have that airborne name, I'll know I've EARNED it and then will have at least something to base saying, "I can make it through to SF/Ranger," off of.
What do you think I should do? Just keep on holding out for the 11X no matter what then huh?